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Francine
Howard was blazing her own trail. Her family had
each made names for themselves in different
areas: her father as a Colonel in the Marines,
her mother as a Harvard law professor, her
brother Mark in the CIA. After six years at the
best schools money could buy, Francine had moved
to the University of Illinois as a psychiatry
major to take part in an experimental program
studying levels of sanity among inmates at
county jails across the country.
The front lobby was busy as Francine entered the
Champaign county jail. With so many people
coming in and going out, Francine wondered what
kind of system tracked who should stay and who
should go. She walked to the front desk, which
was an office entirely encased behind steel and
bulletproof glass.
“Francine Howard,” she said, leaning into
the speaker. On the other side of the glass sat
a thick middle-aged woman in a dark green
uniform who obviously wasn't impressed.
“The shrink?” she asked, searching for the
name on her clipboard. Her finger stopped at a
name and she wrote down the time next to it.
“You new?”
“This is my first visit,” Francine replied.
“Place your ID inside the drawer.”
Francine reached inside her wallet and placed
two pieces of photo identification in the
sliding metal drawer. The woman inside retracted
the drawer and she looked at the identification
cards, then at Francine. Red hair, brown eyes,
five-foot seven, 127 pounds, strong cheekbones
and a nose obviously sculpted by a doctor.
Francine pretended not to notice the impromptu
inspection.
“Enter the door to your right,” the woman
said, returning the identification.
Francine walked toward the door and it clicked
open.
“Have fun,” the woman said.
“I’ve read over a few of your reports. For a
small town you have a lot of big city
nutcases.”
Francine noticed that the presence of a
psychiatrist consciously or sub-consciously
caused self-doubt and a defensive attitude, so
she had always attempted to inject humor into
her initial conversations.
“You'll love this one,” the woman confided.
“He’s in the exercise yard right now, but
he’ll be back in solitary in about twenty-five
minutes.”
Francine glanced at the quick erase board.
Various names were written in each area of the
jail. The exercise room had one small section
and only one word was written in its box:
Legion.
”I’ll just see him in the exercise yard.
Hmmm. You don't have his name listed.”
“When we brought him in, he didn’t have any
I.D. on him and he calls himself Legion. Weird
thing is, I've seen him somewhere before.”
“Maybe I should visit you when I’m through
out here,” Francine teased.
“No thanks! Insanity is the only thing that
keeps me on this side of those doors!”
Francine smiled; she had won the initial
confidence of the woman. The lock clicked open
and Francine entered the housing portion of the
jail. She ignored the silent leers and the
blatant jeers of the inmates as she passed their
cells. There was nothing remotely interesting
about blatant psychosis, lust or maniacal
tendencies. Demon posession, however, was. She
reached the end of the hallway and a bulky guard
was sitting next to the exercise room door
eating potato chips. Francine looked up,
offering a half smile as a silent greeting. The
guard stood up, obviously annoyed, sat his bag
of chips on the chair and reached for a buzzer.
“Open exercise room,” he said into the
speaker.
“He’s got twenty minutes,” the guard said,
tapping his watch. “And I mean twenty.”
“Thanks,” Francine said, giving him a
preliminary diagnosis of an inferiority complex
with tendencies toward external control and
possible misogyny.
The lock clicked and the guard glanced inside
before opening the door. Francine entered the
exercise yard, which was a room almost the size
of a basketball court, open to the sky,
surrounded by walls twelve feet high. Several
layers of concertino wire and spikes layered the
top of the walls. She had been expecting the
inmate to be exercising, but he was sitting
quietly in a corner away from the sunlight.
The door clicked shut behind her.
“Hi, I’m Francine.”
The man opened his eyes. While he didn’t seem
to notice she had even entered, he didn’t seem
shocked that she was there. Two quick glances
told Francine that he was sizing her up. The
first glance determined the threat level
Francine presented; the second glance was
something akin to looking at meat. Francine
glanced up at the cameras monitoring them,
allowing him to establish his dominance.
Each camera was placed at a slightly different
angle to allow all areas of the exercise yard to
be seen and small red lights on each camera
silently confirmed that she was being watched.
The guard was not visible through the small
window in the door. He had, no doubt, returned
to his chips.
Francine
walked toward the young man in a slow,
non-threatening manner, stopping a safe distance
from him. The more control he felt, the easier
it would be for him to talk. She concealed an
almost bored look. People were too easy to
manipulate.
“What’s your name?” she asked with her
most sincere voice.
“I sold my name,” the young man said,
noticeably humoring her.
“So what am I supposed to call you?”
He looked down at the ground.
“Legion,” he whispered.
“Like in the Biblical story?”
“They are no longer.”
“So, how did you sell your name?”
“More easily than you can ask that
question.”
“How many personalities do you have?”
Francine asked, suddenly interested.
“You think I have a mental disorder?”
Legion lowered his head, shaking it in
disapproval. Francine kicked herself for not
using terminology from his viewpoint.
“I'm sorry; how many spirits are inside of
you?” she asked. She shouldn't have slipped
that easily.
“They don’t just stay inside of me, they
swarm in and out of me. Hundreds of them
surround me at all times.”
“Can you hear them individually?”
“Sometimes. Most of the time I hear several
voices all at once, all saying the same
thing.”
“What do they say?”
“Right now they say…” Legion paused and
closed his eyes. When he opened them, he looked
directly at Francine. “Right now, they’re
talking about you.”
“Well, we’re talking about you.”
“What’s a young woman doing in a small
county jail talking to a crazy guy?”
“Why did they choose you?” Francine asked,
steering the interview back on track.
“We chose each other. Do you know what my
mortal name was?”
Francine smiled. Maybe she would walk away with
the prize after all.
“The guards say you won’t tell them.”
“My mortal name was erased. I can’t even
utter it. A lot of the people working here know
me, but no one can remember me or my name. Even
my parents don’t remember me. Don’t you
think that’s odd?”
“What are your parents’ names? We can track
you that way.”
Legion shook his head.
“It’s not that easy. Wanna see a trick?”
he asked, a smile growing on his face.
“If you think it’s that important,” she
answered, accepting the challenge.
“Get the guard to go to the library and bring
last year’s high school yearbook.”
Curiosity peaked, Francine walked to the door
and pushed the intercom button.
“Excuse me? Can I get a copy of last year’s
high school yearbook?”
“You gonna be alright?” the guard replied,
as if his eating potato chips on the other side
of the door made a difference.
“I’m trained to defend myself,” Francine
replied, staring Legion directly in the eye. The
guard walked off and Francine stayed by the
door.
“They’re only letting me talk with you for
twenty minutes,” she said. “Is it really
worth that much?”
But Legion had lowered his head and closed his
eyes again.
Two minutes later, the guard signaled to
Francine through the window and a green hardback
book slipped through the food slot. She brought
it to Legion, still seated in the corner. Legion
thumbed through several pages, and when he
reached a certain section, handed the book,
open, back to her.
The top of the two-page spread read “Kung Fu
Fighting” and had the individual pictures of
eight young men who had competed in martial arts
at the local high school. A name was listed
below each photo. As she scanned through each
photo, she reached a picture of Legion. As aged
as he looked, it was hard believing he was a
senior last year. And although she knew that his
name was listed below the picture, her eyes
would not focus on the words. She blinked and
rubbed her eyes with her fingers. The words were
still an unfocused black and gray, seeming to
float above the page.
She looked at the picture of the boys in front
of him and behind him. She easily read each
name. Darren Young. Frank Nelson. Richard
Peebler. Al Morris. Rob Tankersley. Bill Wheat.
Nick Carroll. She returned to Legion’s picture
and the words were out of focus so badly that it
hurt her eyes to look at them.
Francine hadn't noticed that Legion had stood
up. She was determined to focus on the words,
decipher this puzzle and return this man his
name, and thus his sanity.
“I told you, I sold my name,” a voice said
from behind her.
Francine was so startled by the voice she
dropped the book, but Legion was still standing
in front of her.
“You think you know everything, don’t
you?” the voice said, again coming from behind
her. Legion’s mouth, though open, didn’t
move. Francine felt a body-wide chill roll just
under her skin. She quickly turned around to see
where the voice was coming from.
No one was behind her.
“So, what, you’re a ventriloquist?” she
nervously asked, trying to reassert control.
“No more than you’re a psychiatrist,
Francine,” the voice said, each word coming
from a different direction. “I don’t have a
name, but you do. Francine…Harold?
No...Howard.”
Her nametag didn’t list her last name.
Francine was now in full panic mode, her feet
frozen to the asphalt floor. She couldn’t even
move to motion for help to the cameras.
“I know what you’re thinking. This must be
some kind of trick.”
“Uh….,” was all Francine could respond.
"I am flesh. I am blood. But we are more.
And we are less."
Her face flushed and her heart pounded in her
chest. Legion leaned his face next to hers and
whispered into her ear.
"We are your damnation."
Legion grabbed the pen from her hand.
Ceremoniously raising it high above his head, he
brought the pen down quickly, stabbing himself
in the arm. The pen embedded deeply into his
forearm and blood began to seep around the
edges. He tore the
pen from
his flesh and blood
began to flow,
though it quickly
stopped, leaving a gaping wound. Legion smiled
as he saw the blood dripping from the pen.
Legion cocked his head as if listening to
someone and then looked at Francine and nodded
in silent agreement.
Francine noticed she had begun shivering even
though she was sweating. Legion walked toward
her until he stood directly in front of her. She
could feel his breath on her face and a smell
from deep within triggered a primal revulsion.
"You read enough books that you think
you know something about personality. What you
don’t realize - what none of your kind
realizes - is that personality is more than
random neurons firing collectively
inside an organic brain; a worm has an organic
brain. Let me teach you something... the
spirit is the organ of personality; the brain is
just the filter through which it physically
manifests. Your spirit has already detected who
and what I am and has been trying to tell you,
but your mortal arrogance won’t accept what
it's saying. In reality, it is the true you
showing through this shell of flesh."
Francine stood frozen, wanting to scream, to
move, even just motion
for
help,
but she
was
entranced;
motionless,
except for
an involuntary shiver that would not go away.
"Curiosity
is
a trait
for those
who
do not
know,"
Legion
railed.
"Empathy is for those who cannot help;
desire is for those who do not have."
Francine tried
to concentrate on something else, the sky, the
wall, anything to break out of her fear. Then
she remembered the cameras. Someone had to be
watching, she consoled herself. Legion was
standing too close and his arms were flailing
too wildly not to be noticed.
Sensing a spark
of hope, Legion stepped back, looking for the
source, finally settling on the cameras. As one,
they exploded into a thousand sparks. The door
buzzed from the inside and the bolt locked into
place. The guard heard the commotion, but
pounded uselessly on the door, shattering any
thought of rescue.
"Hope...is
for those without faith," Legion said,
leaning into her face. "And it is so sweet
to dash."
He grabbed her by the chin and kissed Francine
fully on the mouth. Internally, she screamed at
his touch.
"Don’t get your hopes up," Legion
said, winking. "That was a goodbye
kiss."
The brutal change in his face came so quickly
that it caught Francine’s breath. Legion
picked her up by the throat with one hand.
A swift turn of his wrist snapped her
neck. A guttural wail
erupted from his throat, echoing eerily
off the exercise yard walls, finally settling
into the surrounding neighborhoods like an
audible mist.
Legion displayed her lifeless form as a
trophy, effortlessly holding it high above his
head. Dropping the body, he turned to see
the look of shock on the guard’s face as he
peered helplessly through the wired glass.
Legion blew a kiss at the man and then leapt
over the twelve- foot wall, clearing even the
concertino wire.
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